Every company I talk to, lots of folks on this forum, everyone is saying "bad economic times" and talks about how bad business is.
3D Archtecture has been my desire for years.
Why should I "waste" more of my life when the industry is dying, or at the very least slowing down? If big companies are having a time getting new business, what hope do I have?
I'm just sick and tired of striving and hoping and trying to learn more and more tips and techniques that I just begin to question myself 'is it worth it?'
Should I devote weeks and months of my life, of every free moment of my spare time inbetween the 2 jobs that I already work, to learn yet more skills that I seriously doubt that I'll ever be able to get employment with - even part time.
With more and more people from India and China and Russia doing 3D architecture - doing the thing that I love - and charging pennies for it, then I just have to consider my future life.
No disrespect for people from those countries, but a global market means for Job X, I have to compete against people who's cost of living is 5% of what my cost of living is. And they do a really good job.
Working 2 jobs - Tech Support and Photographer - leaves me so little time to do ..well.. anything fun and relaxing. I have applied myself to self-study and feel I am fairly knowledgable in 3ds. I have applied to Architecture firms and to Visualisation firms and am told that there is a hiring freeze or they are laying people off or they are closing their doors soon.
Do I continue to persue a dream when I've hit 45 years of age?
Or do I settle down, quiet the restless 3D urge with quality time with my wife and family? Do I enjoy sunsets with the love of my life, or do I lock myself away working on yet more arcane and subtle ways of doing 3D Architecture?
And I feel I'm too old and just not good enough in the low-poly work for games, and the desire - the passion - for making low-poly game objects doesn't really appeal to me anyways.
I'm tired of chasing the White Rabbit down the Rabbit Hole.
I might fiddle with 3ds, if I need a site plan for my gardening ideas, but no more tutorials or upgrades or anything that takes more than 5 minutes a month.
So, I bid everyone on this site farewell. You all have been very kind to me over the years and I have enjoyed this site and the people that make it an online family.
